Hi Katt
Hope you're feeling a better than you were this morning , and that your day is going okay.
I can relate very well to the mindset that you talked about in your earlier post regarding your addiction. I had myself convinced for the longest time that I wasnt an addict, that I just couldn't be an addict, because all my pills were prescribed by my family doctor. I continued to use that defense even after I constantly ran out of my meds weeks before I should have. And even after I lied to my doctor to get my script refilled earlier and even after I resorted to buying off the street to supplement my ever-growing habit. I even was secretly seeing yet another doctor who would prescribe me oxycontin, so I would have all these pills and I STILL ran out , every single month. I could easily go through 140 percocets in 12 days. It affected every single aspect of my life. And like you, I have a really good job, and I was jeopardizing it. All those years of busting my ass for a university degree , and I was very close to throwing it all away. I'm a mom too, my kids dont know about my addiction, and I was impatient and short with them more times than I care to remember. I completely know how you're feeling right now, it's so hard and it sucks. Keep digging deep within yourself to find the strength to continue the battle. Take it an hour at a time if you have to. Keep posting and reading and doing whatever else it takes to get you over this bump in the road. I am rooting for you, I think everyone here is rooting for you !
Audrey