Thank you for all your replies. Did I learn anything? Yes, I learned I'm a "real" addict. I was still telling myself that because my addiction was a prescribed drug etc that I was different. I'm not - I have no self control with my drug of choice and that's that.
Today is day 2. It's really going badly. I feel so ANGRY. I snapped at two people at work yesterday and also both my kids. Learning to manage my emotions and reactions is going to be difficult. I have been so passive.
I am so tired and just want to cry. I know this passes, it did the last time.
I really appreciate all of you so much. I mean it. I am so grateful.