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Old 08-19-2013, 06:36 PM
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FallenAlien
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Originally Posted by jakec View Post
I was sitting in an NA meeting today thinking "this is all bullsh*t, there is no god, you people aren't really happy".
That really resonated with me. I've been 4 months sober and I haven't been to one meeting because for me I cant stand listening to other peoples sob stories - which is what I mainly heard from a lot of NA meetings in the past. Also the part with people pretending to be happy, even on here I feel like most people here are just miserable and trying to find happiness. Maybe it's just my cynical perspective, I'm not sure.

But anyway if you made an account on here then the right decision is to stay sober. I wanna get high aswell, I honestly do. But I know what will happen if I do. For me I'll lose my bodybuilding progress, respect from my family and friends, my girlfriend, any chance of getting a good career, my school. And eventually I'd be using so much again that I wouldnt even be getting high anymore and id wanna quit again. Then I'd have to start back on the horrible day 1.

Being sober isnt that great yet, but being at the end of a using cycle is worse.
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