Hi there friends. I'm back after some time away. Feeling angry and frustrated. I was 13 days into c/t off Xanax and relapsed into the same dosage I ended with. I split my last large dose into 3 small ones and took the last this am.
So disappointing- I was so close. The major withdrawals were done. Now I'm back to increased sensitivity to noise and constant anxiety and wanting to cry. I didn't tell anyone around me that I relapsed.
I know there will be people telling me to taper but I'm telling you - I can't. If I have them, I'll take them. By the handful. And inpatient is not an option either for reasons I won't go into here.
I miss the support of this community. I need it again. It will be the only way I make it through this.
I hope everyone is doing ok. Any thoughts or advice or a slap across the face is welcome
