thank you for the supportive responses. Today is one of those hangovers that feels like I'm really in a hellish prison and can't break out. I feel trapped by my own behavior and I'm freaking out a bit. I couldn't sleep very well bc of the nausea and i feel really weak today. I know i sound like a big baby but this is a really hard one.
It's especially messed up bc when i was sober for the first seven months of the year i felt great. Really good. Ad i would always remind myself of how horrible drinking felt. And yet here i am, freaking out bc i went on a binge and feel like i can't even plow through a day at work.