Hi, Cleo.
Sorry you feel low and have to deal with a lot of issues in your life. Kudos to you for staying sober among all this mess, it takes guts to deal with this sober.
And whatever the life seems to be, it is never the same as if you were drinking - it's really better sober and there's always change to improve things.
The secular section of SR is usually quite slow because not so many people here, so, please, don't take it personally).
I hope you'll stay with us here)
Keep your chin up. You deserve all the attention you want!
Big hugs to you!