Good morning. I've been reading posts and it gives me hope. I've probably been an alcoholic for 10 years. I've or I should say we have blown through so much money drinking. My husband is an alcoholic too. I feel guilty too. I want to quit and feel good. I haven't felt good in a long time. I feel bad and drink to feel better but IT is the cause of all my grief. A vicious cycle. All of our friends drink. I wish I could move away but I'm 55 and have a great job that I cant leave. Yesterday we met some friends at the bar who are going back to Florida after a visit. I tried to pace myself because my husband and I agreed we couldn't spend so much. I had 2 and water and he kept going. We live in the city and were walking home and he kept wanting to stop at other bars. Came home mad. Hes tried to stop before too. I guess we enable each other. But I need TO STOP.