Well I drink at least a bottle every couple days...Vodka, exp since summer break...when I do get drunk I feel the guilt all disappear and that warmth but then everytime I do something to hurt someone...usually someone I love...my daughter didn't even call me today, I have failed as a mom, daughter...went from HR Director to disability and now do p/t night audit and going back to school which is enough to pay the bills and still grab a bottle...just don't know how to make it all right, I mean I turned 40 today???