Acheleus. I look forward to the interactions that I have with you on here. I think we all need one another to get well. Some days are better than others. All of the advice that has been given to you is for your health.
What happened to the medication for your depression? Why are you not seeing your therapist? Do not throw everything away. We all have pain. The idea is to work through the problems and not compound them with drinking. Please reconsider. You have many people who are trying to help you, but you are the only one who can really do it.