Acheleus...you...the actually YOU doesn't want to go anywhere. That's my thinking. YOU posted goodbye because YOU wanted the push back. Really? You are going to let addiction win? Argh...words fail me. How many more years do you want to avoid what you must go through? You need to deal with that abusive brain of yours...now. Damn...I don't have the words. Because as much as I want you to hang in there...you are the only one who can make this decision. You have to want sobriety and well, it sounds like you don't