Don't go Ach.
You can do this. There are countless stories of people on SR who have slipped and got back up again, people who have faced adversity in their past and present lives and who refuse to allow addiction to ruin their futures.
I look to those who have successfully walked that path and believe I can do it too. Building a new sober life isn't easy...no-one tells us it will be. But it is definitely possible.
I believe it. Please give it another try x