I'm feeling a little different this time around too. Even when AV tries to encourage me, the thought of going back to my old, sneaky drinking ways makes me cringe. This was the first weekend in awhile that I didn't feel like it was a struggle. Just felt happy, calm and relaxed. I know I can't think about "forever", but for now (this moment
)I am actually "ok" with being an alcoholic who cannot drink like a normal person. It no longer feels like a death sentence. There could be far worse things in life to have to deal with. I'm sure there will be days where I will be back to having a pity party, but for now I am going to be grateful that I caught this thing before it ruined my life.
Off to bed now. Night all!