My husband and I can't have serious conversations face-to-face because I am likely to lash out and hurt him. I'm not an A, and we rarely drink at all. I can be awful to him, and I feel horrible for it. But, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree and this is a part of my AM that I internalized and haven't been able to kick. If I get frustrated, upset, or feel that I have been wronged, I will unleash the fires of hell on the other person. It sucks horribly. I wish there was a magic pill to put a stop to it.