Originally Posted by
endlesspatience 
Mecanix
You said: "sometimes i was looking for affection and ended up with sex"
That's what happened last night. I was lonely and I went out looking for affection/ intimacy and ended up with something different.
That's the main cause of my regret.
Hmm ,
HALT , hungry , angry , lonely , tired ... seems to me you might have been on the lonely one ? If you then add alcohol .. well anything could happen, it used to with me ..
Seems to me you've come out of it relatively unscathed ..
If you hadn't have been drinking would any of this have happend ? I doubt it would have played out in the same way .. So i'd lay the blame and guilt right at the door of the booze ..
Get sober and stay sober and all the other things will fall into place, even if they don't you will be in a far better position to deal with it and realize what is "really" is going on with you .
Stick with it , m