I don't know if this is still a piece of it or not Lillamy.
I am grieving the fact that my loved one has no interest in getting better. Actually it is more then just him. It is hard to see others in pain, and hardest to see them caught in the circle of hurting themselves.
It also makes me understand how long I did that to myself.
It is not my fault or anything, but recovery (though hard) has brought so much to my life.
It makes me terribly sad that another would miss out on this growth opportunity. I think there has to be discomfort in growth and it makes me sad to see what he/others are missing out on because of the discomfort.