It was a great post...and then it wasn't.
I get it. I'm a member of the good looking club, but...we can't project desire on the part of others that haven't even spoken to us as in wanting us.
It's just wrong.
And if you're that good looking, you know it's a blessing as well as a curse.
I really admire YOUR desire to work on your program.
If you work on that desire, instead of perceiving others desires, I wonder what you would have seen in the audience?
Maybe those that were truly listening to your pain. Maybe those that watched with amazement as you transformed from board room winner to ordinary broken man...
Hammer, I really feel for you. Not in THAT way.
I too desire the good coffee, the confectionary chocolate delights... and I have also desired to run screaming to the AA meeting just one room down the hall "Take Me!" because there was laughter in that room, there was liveliness, there was a desire for the finer things in life while the al-anon room seemed bleak, unadorned, lonely, and not just sober, but somber.
I still haven't worked that out.