Hey FreedomSought
I think you have to stick it out a little...64 days is great but for me I didn't even start to experience real sobriety til around 3 months.
I wasn't even aware of it but alcohol and pot had coloured my way of thinking, even after I quit. My self esteem was down, I was apathetic, I was still thinking like I used to all those years even tho I was technically clean and sober
I'd smoked and drank so much, for so long it took that long for my head to clear, but it did and I recovered a me I'd forgotten about - the real me
stick with it - you'll be glad you did