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Old 08-05-2013, 06:34 AM
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I'd rather just live in the problem sometimes.

Eh just what the thread title says. I don't really "want" sobriety, I just don't "want" pot either, right now. So I'm kind of just in limbo. Could care less. I'm not really willing to put effort in to finding a sponsor, and I'm just as lazy that I don't feel like hunting down any more pot. I guess I don't really know what I want from life in general.

I did 1st meeting on April 29 2013 got 64 days decided to smoke pot in July 8th did it maybe 10x in July then somehow another 6 days of clean time snuck up on me as I haven't felt like smoking. Don't really know how to explain it except that I was too lazy to pack my bowl, took a deep breath, and said "Stay".
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Old 08-05-2013, 08:32 AM
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Hi. One of the best suggestions I got was "KEEP COMING" even though you don't want to. Eventually sobriety was more attractive than being my stupid SICK self. It works IF we work it. BE WLL
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Old 08-05-2013, 08:43 AM
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Ya know, I recall some of the addiction information I have read talked about different challenges that occur when chronic MJ use ceases. I believe your brain chemistry is slower to recover and that depression is a much more serious threat for a longer time..than with other substance abuses.
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Old 08-05-2013, 09:00 AM
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I read somewhere that sobriety was something you had to have in order to want it. Keep at it and I am sure it will all become clear in time x
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Old 08-05-2013, 11:31 AM
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I read somewhere that sobriety was something you had to have in order to want it. Keep at it and I am sure it will all become clear in time x
Haha thanks hypochondriac I can relate to this. High, next-day-burned, I can't really tell whether or not I want to be clean. Trying to remind myself what sobriety is like would be like trying to close my eyes and visualize the sky.
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Old 08-05-2013, 04:07 PM
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Hey FreedomSought

I think you have to stick it out a little...64 days is great but for me I didn't even start to experience real sobriety til around 3 months.

I wasn't even aware of it but alcohol and pot had coloured my way of thinking, even after I quit. My self esteem was down, I was apathetic, I was still thinking like I used to all those years even tho I was technically clean and sober

I'd smoked and drank so much, for so long it took that long for my head to clear, but it did and I recovered a me I'd forgotten about - the real me

stick with it - you'll be glad you did
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