Trigger
I'm having one of my weird brain-centered cravings again. I had hoped these would be gone after 90 days. I'm not sure what triggered it. I've been working on a difficult to solve problem today, but making progress. So, I don't think I am particularly frustrated.
I really think my brain biochemistry is just off. I'm going to just accept it for what it is and live through it tonight without drinking. My plan is to watch a movie and go to bed early. Tomorrow is another day.
It scares me to think a day like this could turn into a relapse if I am having an off day or feeling weak and let my AV take over. But not today!
EDIT: to clarify, it feels like a physical craving. Sometimes it seems to come from my gut, but today it's my brain.