For me during what your going through I needed flesh meetings, use phone numbers and get honest with myself. I had no power within to overcome all my broken promises to myself. Not being religious I balked at asking for help forgetting all the praying I did while in a jam, as a flesh higher power namely a policeman, jailer and a judge were real higher powers. From the first time I asked for help my burden was lifted for over +30 years and I'm still not religious but am more spiritual now. BE WELL