All is not lost. That's 19 sober days.......and that's great! Know how u r feelin tho. Been there, done that. Still struggling myself. Day 1 for me 2day as well. No pity party for me either. Just getting up, and starting over. Its normal to feel let down tho, I completly get that. Hang tough, we can do this. Look around, so many have. Feel better.