Originally Posted by
whywhy2 
My problem is I dont know if I want to be sober but i dont want to be a slave to drugs.
I believe you
know that you do want to be sober. However, you're not sure you will be happy and content with complete sobriety. That's an issue many of us face as we attempt sobriety.
IMO, you need some sober time to sort this all out. You have a lot to lose, and most of us will tell you that you will not be able to moderate. You want the best of both worlds but I don't believe that is possible. Sure you may manage it for awhile, but eventually, the addiction will take over, control you completely and you will lose much of what you hold dear.
I suggest you give sobriety a very serious attempt; you really have nothing to lose.