WWG: I am so sorry you got caught in this epidemic. Many of us have been there, I have twice, and I certainly know the self-destructive road one can take. But I did not have SR, the great people here and did not have the clear mind of sobriety. You have those tools.
Let this be your motto:
"When you walk through a storm hold your head up high, and don't be afraid of the dark" ~ "You'll Never Walk Alone" from Carousel.