Hey Ippo..I don't remember the details too clearly but I seem to recall a post of yours that detailed some of drinking "fun" as holing yourself up at home drowning yourself in vodka. The experience had you visiting a store for more booze and experiencing shame when you were dealing with the cashier. I also think you're daughter was somehow subjected to that "fun" and had some shame and hurt of her own to deal with. Please forgive me if I have the details wrong regarding the drinking fun.
Ippo...you are a very witty person and perhaps you're drinking friends are a bit boring for you. Perhaps you have to widen your buddy scope to include those you enjoy talking to sober.