I manage to get to sleep but wake early and the mess are giving me weird dreams just when I'm about to fall over...bizarre
Oh! I used to have the crazy dreams too. They stopped fairly quickly for me.
I hope yours quit soon.
Letting go is a big concept, and you can take it a little at a time.
I think I used him as a form of escape, how crazy is that thought...alcoholic boyfriend as stress relief!
Exactly, as a way to escape (for me) my "boring" although safe and quiet life.
Instead of looking for an available man, I found one who was clearly unavailable,
and not truthful about that.
It was an escape. But we must find safer, saner ways to escape.
What are we trying to escape?
I want to learn my lessons here, because I do not want to be alone,
but also, do not want another "escape" from real life, using a damaged man to do so.
Thought I was a smart woman too, independent, good career 2 lovely children them wham!
You are still a smart woman, independent, with 2 lovely children and good career.
Even though the man did not work out (and you are right an alcoholic will never
work out)
I was still there. I still have some brains left, adult children, a grandchild!
We can work with what we got right now.
You are doing your best in this moment. It is tough to get used to anti d's.
If you hang in there, I can tell you, when it happened for me, it was like the sun came
out for the first time in my life.
Do not need anything from the past, except the lesson.
I cannot take credit for this, but someone here said,
"no new contact = no more pain"
Hold on to no contact and keep learning about how to live your best life.
Beth