wicked

Yes! I love the story of the Loch Ness monster, I watch the shows to hear the accents.
(hehehe my own little thing for all things Scottish).

I got burned one time too. Looking back, all the good stuff going on, was going on
in my mind!
Truly, my imagination had conjured up this great guy, who was smart and funny,
thought I was smart funny and good looking!
But, he would disappear, for days, then weeks on end.
Finally tells me he is married but separated. (yeah, I had stupid written on my forehead).
Then, all the tales of woe about his soon to be ex wife.
I was all in. I mean, I had made this great thing out of a guy who was rude, thoughtless and obviously now, a liar.
Still, I continued. It finally ended when he stopped calling, after saying,
"I will call you tomorrow."
No phone call yet, over a year ago.
Yes, I was fuzzy too. I had so convinced myself of this fantasy that it knocked me
back good when he dumped me for the last time.
I spent a long time thinking "what happened? why couldnt he even call and say,
sorry its over?"
then, the pain was sending me back into the abyss of my depressive disorder.
I had to stop that.

so, I came here nearly daily, read other's posts, read that book.
And the realization it is about me and my fear of abandonment that kept me tied in,
well, that was a freeing moment.
That is something I can do, work on myself, and when I am ready, find someone
who is ready to handle all this. LOL

I do understand wanting a little bit of attention from HIM.
But, it will set you back.
This is about you. You want to get better.
You can do this.

Beth

PS
Please stay away from pub monsters! LOL
Glasgow must have plenty of ghosts too.
Lots of silly programs (about ghosts) on the same level as Mountain Monsters.
I so want to visit Glasgow one day. It is on my list of things to do.