Hi Beth I'm trying to stay strong. Reading the book and distracting me somewhat. I know I need to push on.....if I keep going back to him I'm going to end us in a worse state than I'm already in. I never knew that such a thing as love addiction existed before I got burned. Wouldn't wish this on anyone. My brain feels so fuzzy tonight this has been the worst night so far. I just need to keep posting just now. Ps only monster I know is the one in Loch Ness well apart from the one that's probably in the pub lol