You can do this butterfly! Come here and post, post post. I know that it must be hard because you feel like you're being hard on the kids. Ultimately though, you're doing the best thing for them.
It gets better and that's a promise! You did the best thing that you could do too which was posted. I was having a real AV moment issue today and posted. I try to be positive all the time but reality comes dashing in once in a while. It was the responses to that post that helped to set me straight and build me back up to where I needed to be.
I hope that's what the responses to this thread do for you
