Wow. Raising six children, and having five with you at the same time, would be a challenge, even for someone not struggling with sobriety.
Mercifully, we only have to go through the crap we experience in early sobriety once. Or maybe a few times. Our moods become less erratic, and we become better able to manage life's difficulties. We look back and wonder how it is we every felt so awful.
All you need to do right now is stay sober for today. As the days add up, you'll be around long enough to start reaping the benefits of sobriety.