Is it normal for your addiction to try and talk you out of working on your recovery?
and to use self loathing or even a sense of misguided nobility towards others to do it?
yes, it is - it's a sneaky little booger
you deserve and are as worthy of recovery as anyone else here, donltevenknow
if you feel AA is not for you, there's plenty of other avenues to explore
There's many different approaches and methods of recovery around - here's some links to some of the main players, including but mot limited to AA:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html
I recommend you visit the
Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach.
D