It certainly sounds like you are on the right path when you say you have a serious alcohol problem. I'm sure you'll get lots of feedback on this website so what I would advise as the first order of business is to keep posting on this SoberReovery and try not ever to give up your resolve to stop drinking. It isn't easy to stop but it can be done. Hundreds, maybe thousands, maybe more than that, have done it using one method or another. Just remember that we're behind you all the way, thinking of you and trying to help in any way we can. In hopes that this is the beginning of a wonderful upward path for you. Every good wish.
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