I just looked at your profile, pardon me for my previous post, though I will leave it stand. You ARE reading the big book and have been to AA.
Have you a sponsor? Working the steps? Have you been talking to other alcoholics? If so and it isn't helping, are you getting outside help?
Do the work and get better. You have obviously done a lot of things right in your life, now you have the opportunity to do another one or two.
