Those kinds of fears are pretty common, Shelpy
Look around, we still have a ton of fun - I actually lost the joy in my life as a drinker - I have it back now
as far as fixing stuff - give it time.
I know you'd like to fix it all now - but I think the best thing to do is focus on yourself - work hard at staying sober, let people see you've changed, let people work out their own anger and calm down.
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