I nearly died...and I still had trouble accepting that I could never drink again.
What I did was make a commitment I would not drink today...I remade that commitment every morning...I also worked hard at making myself the person I wanted to be...I could accept I didn't need alcohol for that.
I deal with stuff sober, I sorted out some old baggage - I grew and I changed.
I began to like who I was and the life I was building.
Forever no long seemed frightening, it seemed...right. It fit.
That was the moment I knew I really accepted I was an alcoholic and could not drink again, not if I wanted to be who I wanted to be.
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