Wow ,, don't know what to say but have to ask who in the heck ever told you Suboxone was harder to kick then other Opiates ??? Over the last week I have talked to (3) different people in my group meetings and NOT One even came close to saying that. They all said the opposite , yes the WD's will stay with you longer but not 1/2 as bad, The one person that told me they had problems getting off it said they were taking it for over a year. Still not as bad as Oxy's and the other two were only on Suboxone for 4 & 5 months before tapering down and getting off with only a week to 10 days of less than 1/2 the discomfort as CT off Oxy's ,,,
please reconsider ,, give it another try ,, after all what do you have to lose ?
Find a good doctor , good support and keep coming back to this site
I will say a prayer for you now , hang in there