Originally Posted by
jazzfish 
murrill, thanks for that. So, if I may ask, what is the "how to do" for deep acceptance and surrender?
Wish I had a "one size fits all" answer for you, although I think that the fact you are asking means you could be headed in that direction. It was during "the olden days" when I ws treatment, and we had to write a 1st step. I'm very logical, and I like evidence-based information. I chronicled my drinking hiistory, and I looked at my life's decline. They were in sync! It made sense! I didn't drink because I was miserable. I was miserable because I drank!
At the time I sobered up the "disease concept" was very popular. Whether you agree or disagree with it--I am ambivalent myself--it helped. I found a place where I could begin to forgive myself a bit while also embracing hope that I could be helped.
I had hurt enough, and the hope that there was help sustained me. Without that I am not sure I would have been willing to surrender.
Good luck to you.