Yes, I need counseling. Just busy looking for a new place and moving out, selling furniture and saying bye to my roomie. She won't be with me for a month. I arranged to sleep with a friend tomorrow night so I am not here by myself. Looking forward to a change of scenery.
I don't know-I know there's pepper spray and MMA and basic guidelines but what I feel now after I lived this, is that no matter what, if a man wants to get violent with you, he will win.
I am also not appreciating phrases such as "good nothing happened" as if there was no emotional toll. When talking to my dad I also realized how physical violence gets noticed when there are many other ways one can be subject to violence and its like it does not exist. Such as going through hell with XABF. THAT was hell and its like no one close to me understood it.
And now I am comparing instances of abuse in my life and feeling worse. Oh well. Thank you for being there, it helps to express myself. Just sad and with mixed emotions.