Thank you all. So hard to talk about. I think I needed women to understand. I'll try to open up a bit more later. I've been crying and have a headache and I'm so tired. Not really sleeping well.
I feel safe here, I considered posting on a topic specific forum but I feel safe here, plus his alcoholism is just in the background as always.
I felt so bad for him. I'm not trying to hate on him. At all. He took care of me though he did some insanely ridiculous things during. I couldn't be bothered to really engage. It wasn't my priority at the time. But he sobbed on my lap after. I know he's upset too. Mixed feelings here. Hormones aren't helping!
Thanks.