Now the neighbor wandered over who is drinking. My medicine helps with cravings, it is an ssri. Tomorrow I will wake up early and visit the town where I used to live. Today I wrote and felt good, but I do not want to be around my dad. I just want to be at the beach. God I wish I had a real father when I was younger. Today I am stronger than I was yesterday. Thank you guys. SR keeps me prepared with good things.