Im trying to be positive. Ive done all of this to myself. What makes me really sad is knowing how let down and scared my parents would be if I only had the nerve to tell them. So sad to see what alcohol has done to their son they put through college with cash and who've always tried and be supportive. I thought really long and hard about suicide when I first got out the other morning. God knows that would only break my moms poor heart even more. If it wasnt for my family, I would be upset but it wouldnt be as bad. Sucks when you let down the ones you love, repeatedly