After doing the "normal" college weekend partying...my dysfunctional relationship with alcohol started when I graduated 27 years ago. Lots of social drinking until 2000, when I told my wife I quit...even more hidden drinking all the while until 7 days ago.
I had my rules. Beer only 99%of the time. Never more than 10 in a day. Always after work. Never in the morning or at work. Usually slamming a 6 pack or tall boy while driving home or running errands. Usually had 2 or 3 sober days a month...but not more than 4 in a row until this week since I quit for a month in 2002.
Not sure what started clicking. I suddenly have lost interest in playing my games.