Hi. Try an AA meeting? To me that sounds like I think I'll go down this street on the way to wherever. This is probably the most important thing in your life to do. AA has helped millions and is world wide. Being with 30+ years in it I suggest at least 90 meetings in 90 days, then if it's not for you your misery is refunded. Reading the posts here and meetings are a great starting point then the work can start on staying sober. BE WELL