Actually... hearing the statement "you picked him" in this thread has given me the reminder I need today... this past week has been even more of a nightmare than usual... and I'm so angry... but reminding myself that I picked him, although it sucks, it is true. I am responsible for me. I'm not angry at myself for picking him. Not at the moment anyway lol. But somehow, just reminding myself that I picked him after reading this thread has calmed me down a bit. Peace.