So I think my decisions for the moment are I will not be around him when he drinks, and he cannot drive with the children in the car. The second one is hard, because I have been relying on him to take DD to camp and DS to daycare. I will just have to arrange things myself.
All I know is I cannot go down this road. When I got home and smelled the booze all over him I asked if he was drinking. He said yes, and he will be drinking every night from now on and he guesses the divorce papers will be in the mail. I said no, but now wondering if that should have been a yes. I don't want to make that decision now, but I do know I can't do this again.
I feel like everything is crumbling around me. 18 years of marriage, 22 years together, I've known him for more years than I haven't. I simply can't believe it's come to this. And I know many of you have been down this road, just never imagined I would be too.