Thanks for the prayers. I talked to my friend tonight and I'm so hurt that I ended up getting angry at him! I sounded very short with him and I dont mean to, but I dont know how to deal with the hurt and it is so overwhelming. I know God has a plan but I still have to work through this hurt and it is just not going to go away overnight. I told him that I couldnt just say goodbye and not feel anything at all. I wish I felt nothing, but I feel everything and I love him so much and I only wish the best for him. Why does it hurt so much and why cant things be easier? The pain is so much now and only God can take it away. I guess the pain makes me real. But at least I'm feeling my feelings instead of numbing them.