scaredandupset

I am spending to much of my days focusing on this issue, and it is physically and mentally draining. I did check out those links, and they had good information.

I don't think calling any hotline or paying for counselling will do any good. I don't even know if it happened, and there was no leakage or anything on my underwear or any other evidence. The bruises wont be taken seriously, I got a bruise on my forearm 2 days ago and have no idea how I got it, so imagine the possibilities when drunk.

I am getting tested soon, this will comfort me. The anal irritation I had after that night was most likely due to the diarreah and loose bowel movements I had regularly. I mentioned that my bowel movement the next morning felt weird, but I was still drunk at that time too and thought nothing of it (maybe it was just nothing).

Dealing with the unknown is going to be a tough task, and will effect me forever. This is a huge lesson for me.