scaredandupset

I'm now convinced that I was sexually assaulted while blackout drunk, these thoughts take up 90% of my days.

I didn't notice the soreness until I started analyzing that night a few days later.

- There was no reason for me to be in that random area,
- there was no reason for me to be with some random person who think having sex with somebody you don't really know is right,
- there was no reason for me to have 2 fingerprint sized bruises on my waist.
- there was no way I would've kept all my belongings or not been stopped by the police unless somebody was with me

I was not even aware of the event that occurred, yet I'm still so traumatized by it. I can only imagine what the survivors who were awake feel like. I never thought this was possible for men, but I should've known better, especially with the gay area of the city close by. I cant believe what I have done. I should've known that these acquaintances would not look out for me. I don't know how I will get my eating and sleeping habits back to normal.

This is a nightmare.