My vet is well aware of her issues. I have a very good relationship with my vet - a 22 year relationship as he has cared for all of my dogs and cats. I am not new to euthanasia. I am a retired dog breeder and have gone down the euthanasia path more times than I care to remember. I never do it lightly - it is the hardest decision to make, but one of the most loving when a beloved animal is sick.
I do not like to watch an animal in pain and do not want to prolong their suffering for my own selfish needs - I have agonized many times over saying goodbye to beloved dogs and cats.
I'm sorry - now I've got myself crying. You know Angelina, your advice is good. I have counseled many of puppy buyers in this same situation but when it's oneself, objectivity just flies out the window. Since my vet is also a very good friend, he will be able to provide that objectivity for me. Thank you.