Hi everyone. I was in the May class, had 18 days sober then decided to drink. I had some 2 or 3 day stretches of not drinking since then but I don't want to ever drink again. I just bought Rational Recovery and am going to follow the AVRT method and post in here more often. I want to change and regain control over my life. It's so frustrating. I stopped eating oranges because they give me pimples so why can't I stop drinking when I know it's killing me?! I know it's because it's an addiction but I guess I'm not used to feeling so helpless over something. So another Day 1 just about in the books. I want it to be the last Day 1 ever.