Bluefade I'm coming from a pretty similar situation, tomorrow is a week sober for me.
What helped me a lot when I came to this forum was seeing both the posts from people who were in the same or similar straits as me, which made me feel less alone, but also posts from people who were in my situation but who got sober and stayed there--that gave me hope that it can be done. Also, there's a lot of good general information, like I didn't know that people have seizures sometimes in detoxing (that's sort of good to know..), and there's a lot of information about recovery methods as well.
You are looking for help, that's the first step, that's great! Good luck, and I hope things get better.
OH PS chat on here is pretty entertaining
usually lots of nice people